Thoughts unfettered… turbulent emotions running through
Questions left unanswered searching for it to unravel in front of me
I am asking for a response maybe finding rebuttal of what tomorrow brings.
Tears started to trickle down unknowingly
A faint sob with forethought that someone from somewhere may hear
Clutched my chest while my other hand on my mouth to stifle the sound
But the heart heeds that no one will hear my cries.
Looking back I have made a momentum… achieved to keep going
The spirit is willing yet the body is unobliging and resistant
The soul feels depleted… my heartbeat disconnected to the rhythm
Now all I see is darkness… an obscured facet.
Looking ahead I cannot see a light nor a glimmer
I was told it is just another chapter ready to be written
My heart is full of gratitude because somehow they see me in a different angle
But why am I feeling like a withered phantom and could no longer see what they see?
Why do I feel so desolated… unattached to what is now
Why do I feel blind… undescerning to what is ahead
Why do I feel calloused… hardened from constant pain
Yet my spirit is yearning… to clamour a patch up of my withered heart in surrender.
20 August 2020
Choices, Chances and Changes 
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